Successful dinner....Lunch ehhh not so much

Well today was a wash I think. I did really well for breakfast, two boiled eggs and a banana. Then there was lunch. Tapatios  is this wonderful little Mexican place in downtown Knoxville. I met my hubby there for lunch cause he was working a split shift today. Chips and salsa chips and salsa MORE chips and salsa. Man I wish there was something healthier to eat with salsa other than chips. Salsa is so tasty.  I had a chicken chimi, rice and guacamole salad. I am proud to say that lunch did not define the rest of my day. I have a bad habit of if I go overboard on one meal to just say screw it for the rest of the day. That is not the case today. Dinner was a success. I had one piece of sourdough bread. Two no fat white turkey meat hot dogs (first time for those but they were pretty tasty), a bowl of mixed veggies and a few oven fries.  No night time snack for me tonight I think I will just skip it. Going out to lunch also means I skipped my lunch time workout today. I know, I know BOOOO. Don't worry, as I sit here and type I am sweating from being on the medieval torture device in my basement.  I have a love hate relationship with my elliptical. OK let me be honest I have a hate hate relationship with it and exercise in general. I know it is a necessary EVIL but that doesn't mean I have to like it. Tomorrow is another day and another opportunity to make healthy choices for me and my family. There's a skinny girl trapped inside but she's still  clawing her way to the top. It will not be easy! It will be worth it!

Comittment

I've done it time and time again, this weight loss journey. I've had some success but only temporary. When you do not really change your lifestyle and only "change" for a short time the weight always comes back. Today I decided to start this blog for accountability. I've been reading a few other weight loss blogs online and they are such an encouragement for me. Sean Anderson " The Daily Diary of a Winning Loser" is one that is an amazing story and if you have a chance you should check it out. Also Jack Sh*t, getting fit is hilarious! Last year I had a baby and gained around 30lbs. I know,I know big deal 30lbs. The 30lbs pounds I gained is piled on top of another 35-40lbs I already needed to lose. I am 5' 7 3/4" and currently weigh 226lbs. Lets go back a little bit and let me tell you where I started from. As a kid I was always a little on the chunky side. High school was no different. I was fairly active with sports and such so I was able to keep it under check to a point. After high school, my activity level went waaaay down and the weight piled on. In my early 20's I made a conscious effort to drop some weight and I was fairly successful in dropping close to 30lbs. BUT of course it was a short lived victory. I went back to my old ways and it came back. Over the years I've gained and lost, gain and lost. In 2005, I had my first child. Due to weight related health issues (high blood pressure) I had a difficult pregnancy and ended up having a baby who was born 8 weeks premature. The guilt I had and still have over that still follows me today. Thankfully I can say he is a healthy and happy well adjusted 5 year old boy. I really wanted to have more children but was so afraid I would have to go through the same issues due to my weight. In 2008 I committed to getting healthy for another chance at a baby. In 6 months I lost 53lbs. At the end of the same year I had gained 17lbs back and also became pregnant with my second child. With the pregnancy I gained another 30lbs. So you do the math....17 + 30 =47. That's right folks 53 lbs lost and 47 gained back. Thankfully he was born full term and at a normal weight.
 It is now nearly September of 2010 and I am still "trying " to get rid of the weight. When I say "trying" I know the sarcasm does not translate, but trust me it's there.  Anyone who says being overweight is not seriously affecting their health is just lying to themselves. It is time to get busy! Time to stop with excuses and make a lifelong commitment to healthy living and eating. I do not want to pass this kind of legacy on to my children.  I am going to try and post at least 3-4 times per week. I invite others to comment, give advice, vent, whatever you may want to do. But please I need to be held accountable! First thing...increase water intake and start counting calories. Meal planning instead of grabbing what is quick or easy. There's a skinny girl in there, for now she's trapped but she is starting to claw her way to the top. It will not be easy. It will be worth it!